I have decided to do something a little different this week and instead of a class update I am just going to freewrite and see what I come up with.
I have not been overly tired nor have I been overly worked. Stressed maybe a little but nothing that some meditation can't cure. I have been considering a change but what to change to?? A new look? A new color? To this question I have no answer because it seems as though I have hit a cross road and in considering the directions I have chosen to sit in the middle and not commit to any. I don't feel that this is right for me nor do I feel that I should rush myself to make that change but I have not gotten to the point in my life where I can say I am 100% happy. I don't know if that place is possible but I do know tha I have found some happy medium that seems to fit my mood right now. I have based many of my decisions off of feelings and instincts because I really have no hard evidence that I should follow any other "path" but I cannot continue to flounder as I am. I have an idea of what I want to do with my life but the obsticles that stand in my way seem to overshadow my wants and needs. Is this concious or is it just subliminal where I feel that ethics take control? I have a lot of soul searching ahead of me and I hope that I can find my path because the abyss that I am floating in is begining to take its toll and I do know that I don't want to end up wishing I had made a decision later on in life.